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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,OCTAVE ,MIRBEAU 

,TEXT 3 

,:5 ,I REGA9$ MY S5SES1 ! KILL+ ( ,SPY APPE>$ TO ME A MON/R\S CRIME4 ,I WAS AS HORRIFI$ AS IF ,I HAD KILL$ A *ILD4 ,( ALL ! C[>DLY ACTS COMMITT$ ,I ?\<T ?AT WAS ! MO/ C[>DLY & LOA?SOME6 ,TO KILL ,JULIETTE6 ,?AT W\LD HAVE BE5 A CRIME1 ( C\RSE1 BUT P]HAPS !RE C\LD BE F\ND1 IF NOT AN EXCUSE1 AT LEA/ A REASON = ?AT CRIME 9 ! REVOLT ( MY ANGUI%4 ,BUT TO KILL ,SPY6 ,A DOG 444 A POOR1 9(F5SIVE CREATURE6 ,:Y8 ,= NO O!R REASON ?AN ?AT ,I WAS A BRUTE1 ?AT ,I HAD 9 ME ! SAVAGE & IRRESI/IBLE 9/9CT ( A MURD]]6 ,DUR+ ! W> ,I HAD KILL$ A MAN :O WAS K9DLY1 Y\NG & /RONG1 & ,I HAD KILL$ HIM JU/ AT ! MOM5T :51 FASC9AT$1 ) BEAT+ HE>T1 HE WAS RAPTUR\SLY WAT*+ ! RIS+ SUN6 ,I HAD KILL$ HIM :ILE HIDD5 BEH9D A TREE1 CONCEAL$ BY ! %AD[1 LIKE A C[>D6 ,HE WAS A ,PRUSSIAN8 ,:AT DIFF]5CE DOES IT MAKE6 ,HE1 TOO1 WAS A HUMAN BE+1 A MAN LIKE MYSELF1 BETT] ?AN MYSELF4 ,UPON HIS LIFE W]E DEP5D+ ! FEEBLE LIVES ( WOM5 & *ILDR52 A PORTION ( SUFF]+ HUMANITY WAS PRAY+ = HIM1 WAIT+ = HIM2 P]HAPS 9 ?AT VIRILE Y\?1 9 ?AT ROBU/ BODY ?AT WAS HIS1 HE HAD ! G]MS ( ?OSE SUP]IOR BE+S = :OM HUMANITY HAD BE5 LIV+ 9 HOPE8 ,& ) ONE %OT FROM AN IDIOTIC1 TREMBL+ GUN ,I HAD DE/ROY$ ALL ?AT4 ,& N[ ,I KILL$ A DOG6 444 & KILL$ IT :5 IT WAS COM+ T[>D ME1 :5 IT WAS TRY+ ) ITS LITTLE PAWS TO CLIMB ON MY LAP6 ,V]ILY1 ,I WAS AN ASSASS96 ,?AT SMALL CADAV] HAUNT$ ME1 ,I ALWAYS SAW ?AT HEAD HIDE\SLY CRU%$1 ! BLOOD SQUIRT+ ALL OV] ! :ITE CLO!S ( ! B$ROOM1 & ! B$ 9DELIBLY /A9$ ) BLOOD4 

,:AT WAS ALSO TORM5T+ WAS ! ?\<T ?AT ,JULIETTE W\LD NEV] =GIVE ME ! LOSS ( ,SPY4 ,%E W\LD BE HORRIFI$ AT ! M]E SI<T ( ME4 ,I WROTE H] LETT]S ( REP5TANCE1 ASSUR$ H] ?AT FROM N[ ON ,I WAS GO+ TO BE SATISFI$ ) :AT LITTLE ATT5TION %E MI<T GIVE ME1 ?AT ,I W\LD NEV] AGA9 COMPLA91 ?AT ,I WAS NOT GO+ TO REPROA* H] = H] BEHAVIOR2 MY LETT]S W]E SO HUMBLE1 SO SELF-DEGRAD+1 SO VILELY SUBMISSIVE ?AT A P]SON O!R ?AN ,JULIETTE W\LD FEEL DISGU/$ ON READ+ !M4 ,I S5T !M ) A MESS5G] :OSE RETURN ,I W\LD ANXI\SLY AWAIT ON ! CORN] ( ! ,RUE DE ,BALZAC4 

0,NO ANSW]60 

0,>E Y\ SURE Y\ DID NOT GIVE IT TO ! WRONG P]SON8 ,DID Y\ DELIV] IT TO ! P>TY ON ! FIR/ FLOOR80 

0,YES1 ,MONSIEUR4 ,! MAID EV5 SAID TO ME3 ',NO ANSW]6'0 

,I W5T TO H] H\SE4 ,! DOOR WAS OP5$ ONLY TO ! EXT5T ALL[$ BY ! *A9 LOCK :I* ,JULIETTE1 FE>+ ME1 HAD ORD]$ PUT ON1 S9CE ! EV5+ ( ?AT T]RIBLE SC5E2 & ?R\< ! HALF-OP5$ SPACE ,I C\LD SEE ! MOCK+ & CYNICAL FACE ( ,CELE/9E4 

0,MADAME IS NOT 960 

0,CELE/9E1 MY GOOD ,CELE/9E1 LET ME 91 PLEASE60 

0,MADAME IS NOT 960 

0,CELE/9E6 ,MY DE> LITTLE ,CELE/9E4 ,LET ME GO 9 & WAIT = H]4 ,I'LL GIVE Y\ A LOT ( MONEY40 

0,MADAME IS NOT 960 

0,CELE/9E1 ,I BEG ( Y\6 ,GO & TELL ,MADAME ?AT ,I AM H]E1 ?AT ,I AM ALL RI<T N[ 444 ?AT ,I AM V]Y SICK 444 ?AT ,I AM GO+ TO DIE6 ,& Y\ %ALL HAVE A HUNDR$ FRANCS1 ,CELE/9E 444 TWO HUNDR$ FRANCS60 

,CELE/9E LOOK$ AT ME SLYLY1 ) A MOCK+ AIR1 HAPPY TO SEE ME SUFF]1 HAPPY ABOVE ALL TO SEE A MAN R$UC$ TO H] [N LEVEL1 BEGG+ S]VILELY TO H]4 

0,= JU/ ONE M9UTE1 ,CELE/9E4 ,I'LL JU/ LOOK AT H] & GO AWAY60 

0,NO1 NO1 ,MONSIEUR6 ,%E'LL SCOLD ME60 

,! R++ ( A BELL WAS HE>D4 ,I HE>D ! NOISE ( IT QUICK54 

0,Y\ SEE1 ,MONSIEUR1 %E IS CALL+ ME60 

0,WELL1 N[6 ,CELE/9E1 TELL H] ?AT IF %E DOES NOT COME TO MY H\SE BY SIX O'CLOCK1 IF %E DOES NOT WRITE TO ME BY SIX O'CLOCK 444 TELL H] ?AT ,I AM GO+ TO KILL MYSELF6 ,SIX O'CLOCK1 ,CELE/9E6 ,DON'T =GET N[ 444 TELL H] ?AT ,I AM GO+ TO KILL MYSELF60 

0,ALL RI<T1 ,MONSIEUR60 

,! DOOR WAS %UT BEH9D ME ) ! CLANG ( A *A9$ LOCK4 

,IT OCCURR$ TO ME TO SEE ,GABRIELLE ,B]NI]1 TO TELL H] MY TR\BLES1 TO ASK H] ADVICE1 & USE H] (FICES = A RECONCILIATION ) ,JULIETTE4 ,GABRIELLE WAS F9I%+ BREAKFA/ ) A FRI5D ( H]S1 A %ORT1 SK9NY WOMAN ( D>K COMPLEXION1 ) A PO9T$ *9 LIKE A M\SE :I* :5 SPEAK+ SEEM$ ALWAYS TO BE NIBBL+ AT SOME?+4 ,9 A MORN+ ROBE ( :ITE SILK1 SOIL$ & RUMPL$1 H] HAIR KEPT FROM FALL+ BY A COMB /UCK ACROSS IT ON TOP ( H] HEAD1 H] ELB[S RE/+ ON ! TABLE1 ,GABRIELLE WAS SMOK+ A CIG>ETTE & SIPP+ *>TREUSE FROM A GLASS4 

0,:Y1 ,JEAN6 ,& SO Y\ HAVE COME BACK80 

,%E %[$ ME 9TO H] DRESS+ ROOM :I* WAS V]Y UNTIDY4 ,AT ! V]Y FIR/ WORDS :I* ,I SPOKE ( ,JULIETTE1 %E EXCLAIM$3 

0,:Y 444 DON'T Y\ KN[8 ,WE HAVE NOT BE5 ON SPEAK+ T]MS = TWO MON?S S9CE ! TIME %E BEAT ME \T ( A CONSUL1 MY DE>1 AN ,AM]ICAN ,CONSUL1 :O PAID ME FIVE ?\S& A MON?6 ,YES1 %E BEAT ME \T ( IT1 ?AT SK9FL9T DID6 ,& H[ AB\T Y\8 ,Y\ HAVE MADE H] COME D[N A PEG L[]1 ,I HOPE40 

0,AH6 ,I60 ,I ANSW]$1 0,I AM V]Y UNHAPPY6 ,& SO A CONSUL IS H] LOV] N[60 

,GABRIELLE RELIT H] EXT+UI%$ CIG>ETTE & %RUGG$ H] %\LD]S4 

0,H] LOV]6 ,DO Y\ ?9K WOM5 LIKE ?AT CAN KEEP A LOV]6 ,%E C\LD NOT KEEP ! ,LORD HIMSELF1 MY DE>6 ,AH1 M5 DON'T /ICK TO H] V]Y LONG1 ,I TELL Y\4 ,!Y COME ONE DAY & !N ! NEXT !Y PIT* CAMP SOME:]E ELSE4 ,WELL1 ?ANKS V]Y MU*6 ,IT'S ALL RI<T TO FLEECE !M BUT Y\ MU/ DO IT ) Y\R GLOVES ON1 DON'T Y\ ?9K8 ,& Y\ >E /ILL 9 LOVE ) H]1 POOR BOY40 

0,/ILL--:Y ,I AM MORE SO ?AN EV]6 ,I HAVE DONE EV]Y?+ TO CURE MYSELF ( ?IS %AMEFUL 9FATUATION :I* MAKES ME ! L[E/ ( M51 :I* KILLS ME1 BUT ,I CAN'T4 ,WELL N[1 %E IS LEAD+ A LOA?SOME LIFE1 ISN'T %E80 

0,AH6 ,WELL 444 ?AT'S TRUE10 ,GABRIELLE EXCLAIM$1 BL[+ A CL\D ( SMOKE 9 ! AIR4 0,Y\ KN[ ?AT ,I MYSELF DON'T PLAY ! PRUDE4 ,I AM 5JOY+ MYSELF JU/ LIKE EV]YBODY ELSE 444 BUT HONE/LY 444 ,I CAN SWE>4444 ,I'D FEEL A%AM$ TO DO :AT %E DOES60 

,) HEAD TURN$1 %E WAS EMITT+ COILS ( SMOKE :I* ROSE TREMBL+LY T[>D ! CEIL+4 ,& TO EMPHASIZE :AT %E HAD JU/ SAID3 

0,?AT'S ! TRU? ,I AM TELL+ Y\10 %E REPEAT$4 

,AL?\< ,I SUFF]$ CRUELLY1 AL?\< EV]Y WORD ( ,GABRIELLE CUT MY HE>T AS ) A KNIFE1 ,I CAME UP TO H] & COAX+LY3 

0,COME1 MY LITTLE ,GABRIELLE10 ,I BEGG$ H]1 0TELL ME ALL AB\T H]60 

0,TELL Y\6 444 TELL Y\6 ,WAIT N[6 ,Y\ KN[ ! TWO ,BORG%EIM BRO!RS 444 ?OSE TWO DIRTY ,G]MANS6 ,WELL1 ,JULIETTE1 WAS ) BO? ( !M AT ! SAME TIME4 ,I SAW ?AT MYSELF1 Y\ KN[6 ,AT ! SAME TIME1 M9D Y\1 MY DE>6 ,ONE NI<T %E SAID TO ONE ( !M3 ',AH WELL6 ,IT IS Y\ ?AT ,I LOVE6' ,& %E L$ HIM AWAY4 ,! NEXT DAY %E SAID TO ! O!R3 ',NO1 IT IS POSITIVELY Y\6' ,& %E L$ HIM AWAY4 ,& Y\ %\LD HAVE SE5 !M6 ,TWO WRET*$ ,PRUSSIANS :O HAGGL$ OV] ! BILL6 ,& A LOT ( O!R ?+S4 ,BUT ,I DON'T WANT TO TELL Y\ ANY?+ BECAUSE ,I SEE ,I HURT Y\40 

0,NO60 ,I EXCLAIM$1 0NO1 ,GABRIELLE1 GO ON1 BECAUSE 444 Y\ UND]/&4 ,AFT] ALL ! DISGU/ 444 ! DISGU/44440 

,I WAS *OK+4 ,I BUR/ 9TO SOBS4 

,GABRIELLE WAS TRY+ TO CONSOLE ME4 

0,COME6 ,COME N[4444 ,POOR ,JEAN6 ,DON'T CRY6 ,%E DOES NOT DES]VE ALL ?IS GRIEF6 ,SU* A NICE BOY AS Y\ >E6 ,I CAN'T SEE H[ ?AT IS POSSIBLE6 ,I ALWAYS US$ TO TELL H]3 ',Y\ DON'T UND]/& HIM1 MY DE>1 Y\ NEV] DID UND]/& HIM1 A MAN LIKE ?AT IS A JEWEL6' ,AH6 ,I KN[ SOME WOM5 :O W\LD BE MI<TY GLAD TO HAVE A MAN LIKE Y\ 444 & :O W\LD LOVE Y\ V]Y MU*60 

,%E SAT D[N ON MY LAP & WANT$ TO DRY ! TE>S FROM MY EYES4 ,H] VOICE BECAME S(T & H] EYES LUM9\S3 

0,HAVE A LITTLE C\RAGE4 ,CUT LOOSE FROM H]6 ,GET ANO!R ONE1 ONE :O IS K9D & G5TLE1 ONE :O W\LD UND]/& Y\4 ,CAN'T Y\ SEE80 

,& SUDD5LY1 %E ?REW H] >MS >\ND ME & FA/5$ H] M\? UPON MY [N4 ,H] B>E BREA/ :I* ROLL$ \T FROM UND] ! LACE ( H] PEIGNOIR WAS PRESS+ AGA9/ MY *E/4 ,?IS KISS1 ?IS EXPOS$ PORTION ( H] BODY HORRIFI$ ME4 ,I FRE$ MYSELF FROM H] EMBRACE1 ,I RUDELY PU%$ ,GABRIELLE AWAY1 %E /RAI<T5$ UP AGA9 SOME:AT ABA%$1 FIX$ H] DRESS & SAID TO ME3 

0,YES1 ,I UND]/&6 ,I HAVE HAD ! SAME FEEL+4 ,BUT1 Y\ KN[1 DE>4 ,:5EV] Y\ WANT TO 444 COME TO SEE ME40 

,I LEFT4 ,MY LEGS W]E %AK+1 >\ND MY HEAD ,I FELT R+S ( LEAD2 A COLD SWEAT COV]$ MY FACE & ROLL$ 9 TITILLAT+ DROPS D[N MY BACK4 ,9 ORD] TO WALK ,I HAD TO HOLD ON TO ! H\SE WALLS1 AS ,I WAS ON ! V]GE ( FA9T+4 ,I WALK$ 9TO A CAFE & AVIDLY GULP$ D[N A FEW DRAFTS ( RUM4 ,I C\LD NOT SAY ?AT ,I SUFF]$ MU*4 ,IT WAS A SORT ( /UPOR ?AT R5D]$ MY MEMB]S 9ACTIVE1 A K9D ( PHYSICAL & M5TAL PRO/RATION 9 :I* FROM TIME TO TIME ! ?\<T ( ,JULIETTE BR\<T ) IT ! S5SATION ( A %>P1 LANC9AT+ ODOR4 ,& 9 MY DISORD]$ M9D ,JULIETTE WAS LOS+ H] ID5TITY2 IT WAS NO LONG] A WOMAN :O HAD AN 9DIVIDUAL EXI/5CE ?AT ,I SAW1 IT WAS PRO/ITUTION ITSELF ) ITS IMM5SE1 \T/RET*$ BODY COV]+ ! 5TIRE WORLD2 IT WAS LU/ P]SONIFI$1 ET]NALLY DEFIL$1 T[>D :I* PANT+ MULTITUDES W]E RU%+ ACROSS ! %AD[ ( WOEFUL NI<TS1 PI]C$ BY TOR*ES C>RI$ BY MON/R\S IDOLS4444 ,I REMA9$ !RE A LONG TIME1 MY ELB[S ON ! TABLE1 MY HEAD BURI$ 9 MY H&S1 ) GAZE FIX$ BETWE5 TWO MIRRORS UPON A PANEL ON :I* FL[]S W]E PA9T$4 

,AT LA/ ,I LEFT ! CAFE & WALK$ & WALK$ AHEAD1 )\T KN[+ :]E ,I WAS GO+4 ,AFT] A LONG C\RSE & )\T ! LEA/ 9T5TION ( GETT+ !RE1 ,I F\ND MYSELF 9 ! ,AV5UE ,BOIS-DE-,B\LOGNE1 NE> ! ,>C DE ,TRIOMPHE4 ,! SUN WAS BEG9N+ TO SET4 ,ABOVE ! HILLS ( ,SA9T ,CL\D :I* TOOK ON A VIOLET T+E1 ! SKY WAS A GLORI\S PURPLE1 & LITTLE P9K CL\DS W]E W&]+ UPON ! PALLID BLUE EXPANSE4 ,! WOODS /OOD \T AS A SOLID MASS1 GR[N D>K]1 A F9E DU/ R$D5$ BY ! REFLECTION ( A SETT+ SUN ROSE FROM ! AV5UE BLACK ) C>RIAGES4 ,& ! D5SE MASS ( C>RIAGES1 CONGE/$ 9TO 9T]M9ABLE L9ES1 W]E PASS+ )\T 5D1 C>RY+ HUMAN BIRDS ( PREY TO NOCTURNAL C>NAGES4 ,RECL9+ ON !IR CU%IONS1 9DOL5T & DISDA9FUL1 ) /UPID C\NT5ANCES & FLABBY FLE%1 EXHAL+ A PUTRID ODOR1 !Y W]E ALL !RE1 SO NE>LY ALIKE ?AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ ,JULIETTE 9 EA* ONE ( !M4 ,! L9E ( VEHICLES APPE>$ TO ME MORE LUGUBRI\S ?AN EV]4 ,AS ,I LOOK$ AT !SE HORSES1 ?IS DIV]SITY ( COLORS1 ?IS CRIMSON SUN :I* MADE ! GLASS PANES ( ! C>RIAGES %9E LIKE BREA/PLATES1 ALL ?IS 9T5SE 9T]M+L+ ( COLORS--R$1 YELL[1 BLUE--ALL !SE PLUMES ?AT SWAY$ 9 ! W9D1 ,I HAD ! IMPRESSION ( LOOK+ AT SOME 5EMY REGIM5TS1 REGIM5TS ( AN >MY ( CONQUE/ READY TO FALL UPON VANQUI%$ FOES1 DRUNK FOES1 DRUNK ) A DESIRE = PILLAGE4 ,& QUITE S]I\SLY ,I WAS 9DIGNANT OV] ! FACT ?AT ,I DID NOT HE> ! RO> ( CANNONS1 DID NOT HE> ! MITRAILLEUSES SPITT+ DEA? & SWEEP+ ! AV5UE ) FIRE4 ,A LABOR] :O WAS RETURN+ FROM WORK /OPP$ AT ! 5D ( ! SIDEWALK4 ,) TOOLS ON HIS %\LD] & CROOK$ BACK1 HE WAS WAT*+ ! /REET4 ,NOT ONLY DID HE HAVE NO HATR$ 9 HIS EYES BUT !RE WAS A SORT ( EC/ASY 9 !M4 ,ANG] SEIZ$ ME4 ,I WANT$ TO COME UP TO HIM1 GRAB HIM BY ! COLL> & CRY \T3 

0,:AT >E Y\ DO+ H]E1 Y\ FOOL8 ,:Y DO Y\ LOOK AT !SE WOM5 SO8 ,!SE WOM5 :O >E AN 9SULT TO Y\R TORN COAT1 TO Y\R >MS TREMBL+ ) FATIGUE1 TO Y\R :OLE WRET*$ BODY EMACIAT$ BY DAILY H>D%IPS6 ,9 ! DAYS ( REVOLUTION Y\ ?\<T Y\ C\LD AV5GE Y\RSELF UPON SOCIETY :I* KEPT Y\ D[N BY KILL+ SOLDI]S & PRIE/S1 HUMBLE & SUFF]+ HUMAN BE+S LIKE Y\RSELF8 ,& Y\ NEV] ?\<T ( ]ECT+ SCAFFOLDS = !SE 9FAM\S CREATURES1 = !SE F]OCI\S BEA/S :O /EAL FROM Y\ Y\R BREAD1 Y\R SUN4 ,LOOK6 ,SOCIETY :I* IS SO CRUEL TO Y\1 :I* TRIES TO MAKE EV] HEAVI] ! *A9S ?AT HOLD Y\ RIVET$ TO ET]NAL MIS]Y1 ?AT SOCIETY (F]S !M PROTECTION & RI*ES2 ! DROPS ( Y\R BLOOD IT TRANS=MS 9TO GOLD ) :I* TO COV] ! FLABBY BOSOMS ( !SE DESPICABLE CREATURES4 ,IT IS 9 ORD] ?AT !Y MAY LIVE 9 PALACES ?AT Y\ >E SP5D+ Y\R /R5G?1 ?AT Y\ >E DY+ FROM HUNG] OR ?AT !Y BREAK Y\R HEAD ON ! B>RICADES4 ,LOOK6 ,:5 Y\ BEG = BREAD ON ! /REETS ! POLICE BEAT Y\ ) CLUBS1 Y\ POOR WRET*6 ,BUT SEE H[ !Y MAKE WAY = !IR COA*M5 & HORSES6 ,LOOK6 ,:AT A JUICY GRAPE-GA!R+ !Y HAVE6 ,AH6 !SE V9TAGE TUBS ( BLOOD6 ,& H[ ON E>? CAN ! PURE :EAT GR[ TALL & N\RI%+ 9 ! SOIL :]E !SE CREATURES ROT60 

,SUDD5LY ,I SAW ,JULIETTE4 ,I SAW H] = A SECOND1 9 PR(ILE4 ,%E WORE A P9K HAT1 LOOK$ FRE%1 WAS SMIL+2 %E SEEM$ HAPPY4 ,ANSW]+ GREET+S ) A SL[ MOTION ( H] HEAD1 ,JULIETTE DID NOT SEE ME4444 ,%E PASS$ ON4 

,%E IS GO+ TO MY H\SE6 ,%E HAS COME BACK TO H] S5SES4 ,%E IS GO+ TO MY H\SE6 

,I WAS SURE ( IT4 ,AN EMPTY C>RIAGE PASS$ BY4 ,I W5T 94 ,JULIETTE HAD DISAPPE>$4 

0,IF ,I C\LD ONLY GET !RE AT ! SAME TIME %E DOES4 ,= ,I KN[ %E IS GO+ TO MY H\SE6 ,HURRY UP1 DRIV]1 HURRY UP60 

,!RE IS NO C>RIAGE 9 FRONT ( ! DOOR ( ! FURNI%$ H\SE4 ,JULIETTE IS ALREADY GONE4 ,I RU%$ D[N TO ! C>ETAK]4 

0,WAS !RE SOMEONE H]E A M9UTE AGO ASK+ AB\T ME8 ,WAS IT A LADY8 ,MME4 ,JULIETTE ,R\X80 

0,:Y NO1 ,MONSIEUR ,M9TIE40 

0,WELL1 IS !RE A LETT] = ME80 

0,NO?+1 ,MONSIEUR ,M9TIE40 

,I WAS ?9K+3 

0,%E'LL BE H]E 9 A M9UTE60 

,I WAIT$4 ,NO ONE CAME6 ,I CONT9U$ WAIT+4 ,NOBODY CAME6 ,TIME PASS$4 ,& /ILL NO ONE CAME6 

0,! CONTEMPTIBLE CREATURE6 ,& %E WAS /ILL SMIL+6 ,& %E LOOK$ GAY6 ,& %E KNEW ?AT ,I WAS GO+ TO KILL MYSELF AT SIX O'CLOCK60 

,I RAN TO ! ,RUE DE ,BALZAC4 ,CELE/9E ASSUR$ ME ?AT ,MADAME HAD JU/ GONE \T4 

0,LI/51 ,CELE/9E1 Y\ >E A NICE GIRL4 ,I LIKE Y\ V]Y MU*4 ,DO Y\ KN[ :]E %E IS8 ,GO & F9D H] & TELL H] ?AT ,I WANT TO SEE H]40 

0,BUT ,I DON'T KN[ :]E ,MADAME IS40 

0,YES1 Y\ DO1 ,CELE/9E4 ,I IMPLORE Y\4 ,PLEASE GO6 ,I SUFF] SO60 

0,UPON MY WORD ( HONOR6 ,MONSIEUR1 ,I DON'T KN[ :]E %E IS40 

,I 9SI/$3 

0,P]HAPS %E IS AT H] LOV]'S8 ,AT ! RE/AURANT4 ,OH1 TELL ME :]E %E IS64440 

0,BUT ,I DON'T KN[60 

,I WAS GETT+ IMPATI5T4 

0,CELE/9E1 ,I HAVE BE5 TRY+ TO BE NICE TO Y\4 ,DON'T MAKE ME LOSE MY TEMP] 444 BECAUSE44440 

,CELE/9E CROSS$ H] >MS1 %OOK H] HEAD & 9 ! DRAWL+ VOICE ( A BLACKGU>D3 

0,BECAUSE :AT8 ,OH1 ,I AM GETT+ TIR$ ( Y\1 Y\ MIS]ABLE WRET*1 Y\6 ,& IF Y\ DON'T BETAKE Y\RSELF FROM H]E 9 A HURRY1 ,I AM GO+ TO CALL ! POLICE1 DO Y\ HE>80 

,& PU%+ ME RUDELY T[>D ! DOOR %E ADD$3 

0,YES1 ,I MEAN IT6 ,!SE SLUTS H]E >E WORSE ?AN DOGS60 

,I HAD S5SE 5\< NOT TO />T A QU>REL ) ,CELE/9E &1 BURN+ ) %AME1 ,I W5T D[N ! /AIRWAY4 

,IT WAS MIDNI<T :5 ,I RETURN$ TO ! ,RUE DE ,BALZAC4 ,I HAD GONE ?R\< SEV]AL RE/AURANTS1 MY EYES SEEK+ ,JULIETTE 9 ! MIRRORS1 ?R\< CURTA9 OP5+S4 ,I HAD GONE 9TO A FEW !AT]S4 ,AT ! ,HIPPODROME :]E %E US$ TO GO ON SUBSCRIPTION DAYS ,I HAD MADE A SE>* ( ! /ALLS4 ,?IS L>GE PLACE1 ) ITS DAZZL+ LI<TS1 ABOVE ALL1 ?IS OR*E/RA :I* PLAY$ A SL[ & LANGUID AIR--ALL ?IS HAD UN/RUNG MY N]VES & MADE ME CRY6 ,I HAD APPROA*$ GR\PS ( M51 ?9K+ ?AT !Y MI<T BE TALK+ AB\T ,JULIETTE & ?AT ,I MI<T P]HAPS LE>N SOME?+4 ,& EV]Y TIME ,I SAW A MAN DRESS$ 9 EV5+ CLO!S1 ,I HAD SAID TO MYSELF3 

0,P]HAPS ?AT'S H] LOV]60 

,:AT WAS ,I DO+ H]E8 ,IT SEEM$ IT WAS MY FATE TO RUN AFT] H] EV]Y:]E1 ALWAYS1 TO LIVE ON ! SIDEWALK1 AT ! DOOR ( EVIL PLACES & WAIT = ,JULIETTE6 ,EXHAU/$ ) FATIGUE1 A BUZZ+ S5SATION 9 MY HEAD1 UNABLE TO F9D A TRACE ( ,JULIETTE1 ,I HAD F\ND MYSELF ON ! /REET AGA94 ,& ,I WAS WAIT+6 ,= :AT8 ,REALLY1 ,I DID NOT KN[4 ,I WAS WAIT+ = EV]Y?+ & NO?+ AT ! SAME TIME4 ,I WAS !RE EI!R TO BR+ MYSELF AS A VOLUNT>Y (F]+ ONCE MORE OR TO COMMIT SOME CRIME4 ,I WAS HOP+ ?AT ,JULIETTE W\LD COME HOME ALONE4 ,!N ,I ?\<T ,I W\LD GO UP TO H] & MOVE H] TO PITY ) MY WORDS4 ,I WAS ALSO AFRAID ,I MI<T SEE H] 9 ! COMPANY ( A MAN4 ,!N ,I W\LD P]HAPS KILL H]4 ,BUT ,I WAS NOT PREM$ITAT+ ANY?+4 ,I HAD SIMPLY COME H]E1 ?AT'S ALL6 ,TO SURPRISE H] ALL ! BETT]1 ,I HID MYSELF 9 ! %AD[ ( ! DOOR ( ! H\SE NEXT TO H] [N4 

,FROM !RE ,I C\LD OBS]VE EV]Y?+ )\T BE+ SE51 IF IT W]E NECESS>Y NOT TO %[ MYSELF4 ,I DID NOT HAVE TO WAIT V]Y LONG4 ,A HACKNEY COA* COM+ FROM ,FAUB\RG ,SA9T ,HONORE1 PASS$ 9TO ! ,RUE DE ,BALZAC1 CROSS$ ! /REET DIAGONALLY TO ! SIDE :]E ,I WAS /&+ &1 GRAZ+ ! SIDEWALK1 /OPP$ 9 FRONT ( ,JULIETTE'S H\SE6 ,I HELD MY BREA?4 ,MY :OLE BODY TREMBL$1 %AK5 BY CONVULSIONS4 ,JULIETTE CAME \T FIR/4 ,I RECOGNIZ$ H] AT ONCE4 ,%E RAN ACROSS ! SIDEWALK & ,I HE>D H] PULL ! H&LE ( ! DOOR BELL4 ,!N A MAN CAME \T2 IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ,I KNEW ! MAN ALSO4 ,HE CAME TO ! LAMP PO/1 SE>*$ 9 HIS POCKETBOOK & AWKW>DLY TOOK \T A FEW SILV] PIECES :I* HE EXAM9$ BY ! LI<T ) UPRAIS$ >M4 ,& HIS %AD[ UPON ! GR\ND ASSUM$ AN ANGUL> & MON/R\S =M6 ,I WANT$ TO RU% \T ( MY PLACE ( HID+4 ,SOME?+ HEAVY HELD ME NAIL$ TO ! GR\ND4 ,I WANT$ TO %\T4 ,! CRY WAS ?ROTTL$ 9 MY ?ROAT4 ,AT ! SAME TIME A *ILL ROSE FROM MY HE>T TO MY BRA9S4 ,I HAD A FEEL+ AS ?\< LIFE W]E SL[LY LEAV+ MY BODY4 ,I MADE A SUP]HUMAN EF=T & ) TOTT]+ /EPS ,I W5T T[>D ! MAN4 ,! DOOR WAS OP5$ & ,JULIETTE DISAPPE>$ ?R\< IT1 SAY+3 

0,WELL1 >E Y\ COM+80 

,! MAN WAS /ILL SE>*+ 9 HIS POCKETBOOK4 

,IT WAS ,LIRAT6 ,HAD ! H\SES1 ! V]Y SKY CRA%$ UPON MY HEAD MY A/ONI%M5T W\LD HAVE BE5 NO GREAT]6 ,LIRAT GO+ HOME ) ,JULIETTE4 ,?AT C\LD NOT BE6 ,I HAD LO/ MY S5SES6 ,I CAME /ILL CLOS]4 

0,LIRAT60 ,I CRI$ \T1 0,LIRAT64440 

,HE HAD PAID ! COA*MAN & LOOK$ AT ME1 T]RIFI$6 ,MOTIONLESS1 ) GAP+ M\?1 ) \TSPREAD LEGS HE WAS LOOK+ AT ME1 )\T SAY+ A WORD6 

0,LIRAT6 ,IS ?AT Y\8 ,IT IS NOT POSSIBLE6 ,IT IS NOT Y\1 IS IT8 ,Y\ LOOK LIKE ,LIRAT BUT Y\ >E NOT ,LIRAT60 

,LIRAT WAS SIL5T4444 

0,COME1 ,LIRAT6 ,Y\ >E NOT GO+ TO DO ?AT 444 OR ,I %ALL SAY ?AT Y\ HAVE S5T ME AWAY TO ,PLO* 9 ORD] TO /EAL ,JULIETTE FROM ME6 ,Y\ H]E1 ) H]6 ,:Y ?AT'S PREPO/]\S6 ,LIRAT6 ,REMEMB] :AT Y\ TOLD ME AB\T H] 444 ?9K ( ! BEAUTIFUL ?+S :I* Y\ HAD PLANT$ 9 MY S\L4 ,?IS DESPICABLE WOMAN6 ,:Y %E IS GOOD ONLY = ONE LIKE ME :O AM LO/4 ,BUT Y\6 ,Y\ >E AN HONORABLE MAN1 Y\ >E A GREAT >TI/6 ,IS IT TO REV5GE Y\RSELF ON ME ?AT Y\ >E DO+ ?IS8 ,A MAN LIKE Y\ DOES NOT REV5GE HIMSELF 9 SU* A MANN]6 ,HE DOES NOT BESMIR* HIMSELF6 ,IF ,I DID NOT COME TO SEE Y\ IT WAS BECAUSE ,I FE>$ TO 9CUR Y\R ANG]6 ,COME1 SPEAK TO ME1 ,LIRAT4 ,ANSW] ME60 

,LIRAT WAS SIL5T4 ,JULIETTE WAS CALL+ HIM 9 ! HALLWAY3 

0,WELL1 >E Y\ COM+80 

,I SEIZ$ ,LIRAT'S H&S3 

0,LOOK H]E ,LIRAT 444 %E IS MOCK+ Y\4 ,DON'T Y\ UND]/& IT8 ,ONE DAY %E SAID TO ME3 ',I %ALL REV5GE MYSELF ON ,LIRAT = HIS CONTEMPT1 = HIS >ROGANT H>%NESS6 ,& ?AT WILL BE A F>CE6' ,%E IS HAV+ ?AT REV5GE N[4 ,Y\ >E GO+ 9TO H] H\SE1 >5'T Y\ 444 & TOMORR[1 TONI<T1 ?IS V]Y M9UTE1 P]HAPS1 %E WILL *ASE Y\ \T 9 DISGRACE6 ,YES1 ?AT IS :AT %E IS AFT]1 ,I CAN SWE>6 ,AH6 ,N[ ,I UND]/& IT ALL6 ,%E HAS PURSU$ Y\6 ,FOOLI% AS %E IS1 9F9ITELY 9F]IOR TO Y\ AS %E IS1 %E HAS KN[N H[ TO TURN Y\R HEAD4 ,%E HAS A G5IUS = EVIL1 & Y\ >E *A/E 9 BODY & M9D6 ,%E HAS P\R$ POISON 9TO Y\R VE9S4 ,BUT Y\ >E /RONG6 ,Y\ CAN'T DO ?IS AFT] ALL ?AT HAS TAK5 PLACE BETWE5 US 444 OR ELSE Y\ >E A DEPRAV$ MAN1 A DIRTY PIG1 Y\ :OM ,I ADMIRE6 ,Y\ >E A DIRTY PIG6 ,COME N[60 

,LIRAT SUDD5LY WRIGGL$ \T ( MY HOLD1 &1 PU%+ ME AWAY ) HIS TWO CL5*$ FI/S3 

0,WELL1 YES60 HE %\T$1 0,I AM A DIRTY PIG6 ,LEAVE ME ALONE60 

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,! NEXT DAY ,I B\<T A SUIT ( WORK+ CLO!S4 

0,& SO ,MONSIEUR IS GO+ AWAY60 ASK$ ! ]R& BOY ( ! PREMISES TO :OM ,I HAD JU/ GIV5 MY OLD CLO!S4 

0,YES1 MY FRI5D60 

0,& :]E IS ,MONSIEUR GO+80 

0,I DON'T KN[40 

,ON ! /REET1 M5 APPE>$ TO ME LIKE MAD <O/S1 OLD SKELETONS \T ( JO9T1 :OSE BONES1 BADLY /RUNG TOGE!R1 W]E FALL+ TO ! PAVEM5T ) A /RANGE NOISE4 ,I SAW ! NECKS TURN+ ON TOP ( BROK5 SP9AL COLUMNS1 HANG+ UPON DISJO9T$ CLAVICLES1 >MS SUND]$ FROM ! TRUNKS1 ! TRUNKS !MSELVES LOS+ !IR %APE4 ,& ALL !SE SCRAPS ( HUMAN BODIES1 /RIPP$ ( !IR FLE% BY DEA?1 W]E RU%+ UPON ONE ANO!R1 =EV] SPURR$ ON BY A HOMICIDAL FEV]1 =EV] DRIV5 BY PLEASURE1 & !Y W]E FI<T+ OV] F\L C>RION4 

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