,P>T #a1 ,*APT] #d #ahggahgg ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TRANSLATOR 3 ,CON/ANCE ,CL>A ,G>NETT ,TEXT 3 ,D>YA ,ALEX&ROVNA1 9 A DRESS+ JACKET1 & ) H] N[ SCANTY1 ONCE LUXURIANT & BEAUTIFUL HAIR FA/5$ UP ) HAIRP9S ON ! NAPE ( H] NECK1 ) A SUNK51 ?9 FACE & L>GE1 />TL$ EYES1 :I* LOOK$ PROM95T FROM ! ?9NESS ( H] FACE1 WAS /&+ AMONG A LITT] ( ALL SORTS ( ?+S SCATT]$ ALL OV] ! ROOM1 BE=E AN OP5 BUREAU1 FROM :I* %E WAS TAK+ SOME?+4 ,HE>+ H] HUSB&'S /EPS1 %E /OPP$1 LOOK+ T[>DS ! DOOR1 & TRY+ ASSIDU\SLY TO GIVE H] FEATURES A SEV]E & CONTEMPTU\S EXPRESSION4 ,%E FELT %E WAS AFRAID ( HIM1 & AFRAID ( ! COM+ 9T]VIEW4 ,%E WAS JU/ ATTEMPT+ TO DO :AT %E HAD ATTEMPT$ TO DO T5 TIMES ALREADY 9 !SE LA/ ?REE DAYS--TO SORT \T ! *ILDR5'S ?+S & H] [N1 SO AS TO TAKE !M TO H] MO!R'S--& AGA9 %E C\LD NOT BR+ H]SELF TO DO ?IS2 BUT N[ AGA91 AS EA* TIME BE=E1 %E KEPT SAY+ TO H]SELF1 0?AT ?+S CANNOT GO ON LIKE ?IS1 ?AT %E MU/ TAKE SOME /EP0 TO PUNI% HIM1 PUT HIM TO %AME1 AV5GE ON HIM SOME LITTLE P>T AT LEA/ ( ! SUFF]+ HE HAD CAUS$ H]4 ,%E /ILL CONT9U$ TO TELL H]SELF ?AT %E %\LD LEAVE HIM1 BUT %E WAS CONSCI\S ?AT ?IS WAS IMPOSSIBLE2 IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE BECAUSE %E C\LD NOT GET \T ( ! HABIT ( REG>D+ HIM AS H] HUSB& & LOV+ HIM4 ,BESIDES ?IS1 %E REALIZ$ ?AT IF EV5 H]E 9 H] [N H\SE %E C\LD H>DLY MANAGE TO LOOK AFT] H] FIVE *ILDR5 PROP]LY1 !Y W\LD BE /ILL WORSE (F :]E %E WAS GO+ ) !M ALL4 ,AS IT WAS1 EV5 9 ! C\RSE ( !SE ?REE DAYS1 ! Y\NGE/ WAS UNWELL FROM BE+ GIV5 UN:OLESOME S\P1 & ! O!RS HAD ALMO/ GONE )\T !IR D9N] ! DAY BE=E4 ,%E WAS CONSCI\S ?AT IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO GO AWAY2 BUT1 *EAT+ H]SELF1 %E W5T ON ALL ! SAME SORT+ \T H] ?+S & PRET5D+ %E WAS GO+4 ,SEE+ H] HUSB&1 %E DROPP$ H] H&S 9TO ! DRAW] ( ! BUREAU AS ?\< LOOK+ = SOME?+1 & ONLY LOOK$ R\ND AT HIM :5 HE HAD COME QUITE UP TO H]4 ,BUT H] FACE1 TO :I* %E TRI$ TO GIVE A SEV]E & RESOLUTE EXPRESSION1 BETRAY$ BEWILD]M5T & SUFF]+4 0,DOLLY60 HE SAID 9 A SUBDU$ & TIMID VOICE4 ,HE B5T HIS HEAD T[>DS HIS %\LD] & TRI$ TO LOOK PITIFUL & HUMBLE1 BUT = ALL ?AT HE WAS RADIANT ) FRE%NESS & HEAL?4 ,9 A RAPID GLANCE %E SCANN$ HIS FIGURE ?AT BEAM$ ) HEAL? & FRE%NESS4 0,YES1 HE IS HAPPY & CONT5T60 %E ?\KADYEVIT* C\LD BE CALM :5 HE ?\D ! TONE ( H] VOICE1 SUBMISSIVE TO FATE & FULL ( DESPAIR1 !RE WAS A CAT* 9 HIS BREA? & A LUMP 9 HIS ?ROAT1 & HIS EYES BEGAN TO %9E ) TE>S4 0,MY ,GOD6 :AT HAVE ,I DONE8 ,DOLLY6 ,= ,GOD'S SAKE64444 ,Y\ KN[44440 ,HE C\LD NOT GO ON2 !RE WAS A SOB 9 HIS ?ROAT4 ,%E %UT ! BUREAU ) A SLAM1 & GLANC$ AT HIM4 0,DOLLY1 :AT CAN ,I SAY84444 ,ONE ?+3 =GIVE444 ,REMEMB]1 CANNOT N9E YE>S ( MY LIFE ATONE = AN 9/ANT44440 ,%E DROPP$ H] EYES & LI/5$1 EXPECT+ :AT HE W\LD SAY1 AS IT W]E BESEE*+ HIM 9 SOME WAY OR O!R TO MAKE H] BELIEVE DIFF]5TLY4 0--9/ANT ( PASSION80 HE SAID1 & W\LD HAVE GONE ON1 BUT AT ?AT WORD1 AS AT A PANG ( PHYSICAL PA91 H] LIPS /IFF5$ AGA91 & AGA9 ! MUSCLES ( H] RIS4 0,DOLLY60 HE SAID1 SOBB+ N[2 0= M]CY'S SAKE1 ?9K ( ! *ILDR52 !Y >E NOT TO BLAME6 ,I AM TO BLAME1 & PUNI% ME1 MAKE ME EXPIATE MY FAULT4 ,ANY?+ ,I CAN DO1 ,I AM READY TO DO ANY?+6 ,I AM TO BLAME1 NO WORDS CAN EXPRESS H[ MU* ,I AM TO BLAME6 ,BUT1 ,DOLLY1 =GIVE ME60 ,%E SAT D[N4 ,HE LI/5$ TO H] H>D1 HEAVY BREA?+1 & HE WAS UNUTT]ABLY SORRY = H]4 ,%E TRI$ SEV]AL TIMES TO BEG9 TO SPEAK1 BUT C\LD NOT4 ,HE WAIT$4 0,Y\ REMEMB] ! *ILDR51 ,/IVA1 TO PLAY ) !M2 BUT ,I REMEMB] !M1 & KN[ ?AT ?IS MEANS !IR RU910 %E SAID--OBVI\SLY ONE ( ! PHRASES %E HAD MORE ?AN ONCE REPEAT$ TO H]SELF 9 ! C\RSE ( ! LA/ FEW DAYS4 ,%E HAD CALL$ HIM 0,/IVA10 & HE GLANC$ AT H] ) GRATITUDE1 & MOV$ TO TAKE H] H&1 BUT %E DREW BACK FROM HIM ) AV]SION4 0,I ?9K ( ! *ILDR51 & = ?AT REASON ,I W\LD DO ANY?+ 9 ! WORLD TO SAVE !M1 BUT ,I DON'T MYSELF KN[ H[ TO SAVE !M4 ,BY TAK+ !M AWAY FROM !IR FA!R1 OR BY LEAV+ !M ) A VICI\S FA!R--YES1 A VICI\S FA!R4444 ,TELL ME1 AFT] :AT 444 HAS HAPP5$1 CAN WE LIVE TOGE!R8 ,IS ?AT POSSIBLE8 ,TELL ME1 EH1 IS IT POSSIBLE80 %E REPEAT$1 RAIS+ H] VOICE1 0AFT] MY HUSB&1 ! FA!R ( MY *ILDR51 5T]S 9TO A LOVE AFFAIR ) HIS [N *ILDR5'S GOV]NESS80 0,BUT :AT C\LD ,I DO8 :AT C\LD ,I DO80 HE KEPT SAY+ 9 A PITIFUL VOICE1 NOT KN[+ :AT HE WAS SAY+1 AS HIS HEAD SANK L[] & L[]4 0,Y\ >E LOA?SOME TO ME1 REPULSIVE60 %E %RIEK$1 GETT+ MORE & MORE HEAT$4 0,Y\R TE>S MEAN NO?+6 ,Y\ HAVE NEV] LOV$ ME2 Y\ HAVE NEI!R HE>T NOR HONORABLE FEEL+6 ,Y\ >E HATEFUL TO ME1 DISGU/+1 A /RANG]--YES1 A COMPLETE /RANG]60 ,) PA9 & WRA? %E UTT]$ ! WORD SO T]RIBLE TO H]SELF--/RANG]4 ,HE LOOK$ AT H]1 & ! FURY EXPRESS$ 9 H] FACE AL>M$ & AMAZ$ HIM4 ,HE DID NOT UND]/& H[ HIS PITY = H] EXASP]AT$ H]4 ,%E SAW 9 HIM SYMPA?Y = H]1 BUT NOT LOVE4 0,NO1 %E HATES ME4 ,%E WILL NOT =GIVE ME10 HE ?\YA ,ALEX&ROVNA LI/5$1 & H] FACE SUDD5LY S(T5$4 ,%E SEEM$ TO BE PULL+ H]SELF TOGE!R = A FEW SECONDS1 AS ?\< %E DID NOT KN[ :]E %E WAS1 & :AT %E WAS DO+1 & GETT+ UP RAPIDLY1 %E MOV$ T[>DS ! DOOR4 0,WELL1 %E LOVES MY *ILD10 HE ?\ ME1 ,I WILL CALL 9 ! S]VANTS1 ! *ILDR56 ,!Y MAY ALL KN[ Y\ >E A SC\NDREL6 ,I AM GO+ AWAY AT ONCE1 & Y\ MAY LIVE H]E ) Y\R MI/RESS60 ,& %E W5T \T1 SLAMM+ ! DOOR4 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* SI<$1 WIP$ HIS FACE1 & ) A SUBDU$ TREAD WALK$ \T ( ! ROOM4 0,MATVEY SAYS %E WILL COME R\ND2 BUT H[8 ,I DON'T SEE ! LEA/ *ANCE ( IT4 ,AH1 OH1 H[ HORRIBLE IT IS6 ,& H[ VULG>LY %E %\T$10 HE SAID TO HIMSELF1 REMEMB]+ H] %RIEK & ! WORDS--0SC\NDREL0 & 0MI/RESS40 0,& V]Y LIKELY ! MAIDS W]E LI/5+6 ,HORRIBLY VULG>6 HORRIBLE60 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* /OOD A FEW SECONDS ALONE1 WIP$ HIS FACE1 SQU>$ HIS *E/1 & WALK$ \T ( ! ROOM4 ,IT WAS ,FRIDAY1 & 9 ! D9+ ROOM ! ,G]MAN WAT*MAK] WAS W9D+ UP ! CLOCK4 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* REMEMB]$ HIS JOKE AB\T ?IS PUNCTUAL1 BALD WAT*MAK]1 0?AT ! ,G]MAN WAS W\ND UP = A :OLE LIFETIME HIMSELF1 TO W9D UP WAT*ES10 & HE SMIL$4 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* WAS FOND ( A JOKE3 0,& MAYBE %E WILL COME R\ND6 ,?AT'S A GOOD EXPRESSION1 'COME R\ND1'0 HE ?\RANGE EV]Y?+ ) ,D>YA 9 ! SITT+ ROOM = ,ANNA ,>KADYEVNA10 HE SAID TO ,MATVEY :5 HE CAME 94 0,YES1 SIR40 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* PUT ON HIS FUR COAT & W5T \T ONTO ! /EPS4 0,Y\ WON'T D9E AT HOME80 SAID ,MATVEY1 SEE+ HIM (F4 0,?AT'S AS IT HAPP5S4 ,BUT H]E'S = ! H\SEKEEP+10 HE SAID1 TAK+ T5 RUBLES FROM HIS POCKETBOOK4 0,?AT'LL BE 5\<40 0,5\< OR NOT 5\<1 WE MU/ MAKE IT DO10 SAID ,MATVEY1 SLAMM+ ! C>RIAGE DOOR & /EPP+ BACK ONTO ! /EPS4 ,D>YA ,ALEX&ROVNA MEAN:ILE HAV+ PACIFI$ ! *ILD1 & KN[+ FROM ! S\ND ( ! C>RIAGE ?AT HE HAD GONE (F1 W5T BACK AGA9 TO H] B$ROOM4 ,IT WAS H] SOLIT>Y REFUGE FROM ! H\SEHOLD C>ES :I* CR[D$ UPON H] DIRECTLY %E W5T \T FROM IT4 ,EV5 N[1 9 ! %ORT TIME %E HAD BE5 9 ! NURS]Y1 ! ,5GLI% GOV]NESS & ,MATRONA ,PHILIMONOVNA HAD SUCCE$$ 9 PUTT+ SEV]AL QUE/IONS TO H]1 :I* DID NOT ADMIT ( DELAY1 & :I* ONLY %E C\LD ANSW]3 0,:AT W]E ! *ILDR5 TO PUT ON = !IR WALK8 ,%\LD !Y HAVE ANY MILK8 ,%\LD NOT A NEW COOK BE S5T =80 0,AH1 LET ME ALONE1 LET ME ALONE60 %E SAID1 & GO+ BACK TO H] B$ROOM %E SAT D[N 9 ! SAME PLACE AS %E HAD SAT :5 TALK+ TO H] HUSB&1 CLASP+ TIE /RANG]S--/RANG]S =EV]60 ,%E REPEAT$ AGA9 ) SPECIAL SIGNIFICANCE ! WORD SO DREADFUL TO H]4 0,& H[ ,I LOV$ HIM6 MY ,GOD1 H[ ,I LOV$ HIM64444 ,H[ ,I LOV$ HIM6 ,& N[ DON'T ,I LOVE HIM8 ,DON'T ,I LOVE HIM MORE ?AN BE=E8 ,! MO/ HORRIBLE ?+ IS10 %E BEGAN1 BUT DID NOT F9I% H] ?\YA ,ALEX&ROVNA PLUNG$ 9TO ! DUTIES ( ! 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