,P>T #aa #ahhbahhb ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TEXT 3 ,& REMEMB]+ H[ ?OSE V]Y BELIEFS HAD REPELL$ ME & HAD SEEM$ MEAN+LESS :5 PR(ESS$ BY PEOPLE :OSE LIVES CONFLICT$ ) !M1 & H[ !SE SAME BELIEFS ATTRACT$ ME & SEEM$ REASONABLE :5 ,I SAW ?AT PEOPLE LIV$ 9 ACCORD ) !M1 ,I UND]/OOD :Y ,I HAD !N REJECT$ ?OSE BELIEFS & F\ND !M MEAN+LESS1 YET N[ ACCEPT$ !M & F\ND !M FULL ( MEAN+4 ,I UND]/OOD ?AT ,I HAD ]R$1 & :Y ,I ]R$4 ,I HAD ]R$ NOT SO MU* BECAUSE ,I ?\DS F\ND 9 ! ,GOSPELS1 0?AT M5 LOV$ D>KNESS RA!R ?AN ! LIY FIR/ ?AT LIFE %\LD NOT BE MEAN+LESS & EVIL1 !N WE CAN APPLY REASON TO EXPLA9 IT4 ,I UND]/OOD :Y ,I HAD SO LONG W&]$ R\ND SO EVID5T A TRU?1 & ?AT IF ONE IS TO ?9K & SPEAK ( ! LIFE ( MANK9D1 ONE MU/ ?9K & SPEAK ( ?AT LIFE & NOT ( ! LIFE ( SOME ( LIFE'S P>ASITES4 ,?AT TRU? WAS ALWAYS AS TRUE AS ?AT TWO & TWO >E F\R1 BUT ,I HAD NOT ACKN[L$G$ IT1 BECAUSE ON ADMITT+ TWO & TWO TO BE F\R ,I HAD ALSO TO ADMIT ?AT ,I WAS BAD2 & TO FEEL MYSELF TO BE GOOD WAS = ME MORE IMPORTANT & NECESS>Y ?AN = TWO & TWO TO BE F\R4 ,I CAME TO LOVE GOOD PEOPLE1 HAT$ MYSELF1 & CONFESS$ ! TRU?4 ,N[ ALL BECAME CLE> TO ME4 ,:AT IF AN EXECUTION] PASS+ HIS :OLE LIFE 9 TORTUR+ PEOPLE & CUTT+ (F !IR HEADS1 OR A HOPELESS DRUNK>D1 OR A MADMAN SETTL$ = LIFE 9 A D>K ROOM :I* HE HAS F\L$ & IMAG9ES ?AT HE W\LD P]I% IF HE LEFT - :AT IF HE ASK$ HIMSELF3 0,:AT IS LIFE80 ,EVID5TLY HE C\LD NOT O!R REPLY TO ?AT QUE/ION ?AN ?AT LIFE IS ! GREATE/ EVIL1 & ! MADMAN'S ANSW] W\LD BE P]FECTLY CORRECT1 BUT ONLY AS APPLI$ TO HIMSELF4 ,:AT IF ,I AM SU* A MADMAN8 ,:AT IF ALL WE RI* & LEISUR$ PEOPLE >E SU* MADM58 & ,I UND]/OOD ?AT WE REALLY >E SU* MADM54 ,I AT ANY RATE WAS C]TA9LY SU*4 ,& 9DE$ A BIRD IS SO MADE ?AT IT MU/ FLY1 COLLECT FOOD1 & BUILD A NE/1 & :5 ,I SEE ?AT A BIRD DOES ?IS ,I HAVE PLEASURE 9 ITS JOY4 ,A GOAT1 A H>E1 & A WOLF >E SO MADE ?AT !Y MU/ FE$ !MSELVES1 & MU/ BRE$ & FE$ !IR FAMILY1 & :5 !Y DO SO ,I FEEL FIRMLY ASSUR$ ?AT !Y >E HAPPY & ?AT !IR LIFE IS A REASONABLE ONE4 !N :AT %\LD A MAN DO8 ,HE TOO %\LD PRODUCE HIS LIV+ AS ! ANIMALS DO1 BUT ) ?IS DIFF]5CE1 ?AT HE WILL P]I% IF HE DOES IT ALONE2 HE MU/ OBTA9 IT NOT = HIMSELF BUT = ALL4 ,& :5 HE DOES ?AT1 ,I HAVE A FIRM ASSURANCE ?AT HE IS HAPPY & ?AT HIS LIFE IS REASONABLE4 ,BUT :AT HAD ,I DONE DUR+ ! :OLE ?IRTY YE>S ( MY RESPONSIBLE LIFE8 ,F> FROM PRODUC+ SU/5ANCE = ALL1 ,I DID NOT EV5 PRODUCE IT = MYSELF4 ,I LIV$ AS A P>ASITE1 & ON ASK+ MYSELF1 :AT IS ! USE ( MY LIFE8 ,I GOT ! REPLY3 0,NO USE40 ,IF ! MEAN+ ( HUMAN LIFE LIES 9 SUPPORT+ IT1 H[ C\LD ,I - :O = ?IRTY YE>S HAD BE5 5GAG$ NOT ON SUPPORT+ LIFE BUT ON DE/ROY+ IT 9 MYSELF & 9 O!RS - H[ C\LD ,I OBTA9 ANY O!R ANSW] ?AN ?AT MY LIFE WAS S5SELESS & AN EVIL8 444 ,IT WAS BO? S5SELESS & EVIL4 ,! LIFE ( ! WORLD 5DURES BY SOMEONE'S WILL - BY ! LIFE ( ! :OLE WORLD & BY \R LIVES SOMEONE FULFILLS HIS PURPOSE4 ,TO HOPE TO UND]/& ! MEAN+ ( ?AT WILL ONE MU/ FIR/ P]=M IT BY DO+ :AT IS WANT$ ( US4 ,BUT IF ,I WILL NOT DO :AT IS WANT$ ( ME1 ,I %ALL NEV] UND]/& :AT IS WANT$ ( ME1 & /ILL LESS :AT IS WANT$ ( US ALL & ( ! :OLE WORLD4 ,IF A NAK$1 HUNGRY BEGG> HAS BE5 TAK5 FROM ! CROSS-ROADS1 BR\RANG$ - ! BEGG] %\LD FIR/ ( ALL MOVE ! H&LE4 ,IF HE MOVES ! H&LE HE WILL UND]/& ?AT IT WORKS A PUMP1 ?AT ! PUMP DRAWS WAT] & ?AT ! WAT] IRRIGATES ! G>D5 B$S2 !N HE WILL BE TAK5 FROM ! PUMP+ /ATION TO ANO!R PLACE :]E HE WILL GA!R FRUITS & WILL 5T] 9TO ! JOY ( HIS MA/]1 &1 PASS+ FROM L[] TO HI<] WORK1 WILL UND]/& MORE & MORE ( ! >RANGEM5TS ( ! E/ABLI%M5T1 & TAK+ P>T 9 IT WILL NEV] ?9K ( ASK+ :Y HE IS !RE1 & WILL C]TA9LY NOT REPROA* ! MA/]4 ,SO ?OSE :O DO HIS WILL1 ! SIMPLE1 UNLE>N$ WORK+ FOLK1 :OM WE REG>D AS CATTLE1 DO NOT REPROA* ! MA/]2 BUT WE1 ! WISE1 EAT ! MA/]'S FOOD BUT DO NOT DO :AT ! MA/] WI%ES1 & 9/EAD ( DO+ IT SIT 9 A CIRCLE & DISCUSS3 0,:Y %\LD ?AT H&LE BE MOV$8 ,ISN'T IT /UPID80 ,SO WE HAVE DECID$4 ,WE HAVE DECID$ ?AT ! MA/] IS /UPID1 OR DOES NOT EXI/1 & ?AT WE >E WISE1 ONLY WE FEEL ?AT WE >E QUITE USELESS & ?AT WE MU/ SOMEH[ DO AWAY ) \RSELVES4 7,S\RCE3 ,A ,CONFESSION1 BY ,LEV ,NIKOLAYEVI* ,TOL/OY1 ,DI/RIBUT$ BY ! ,TOL/OY ,LIBR>Y ,ONL9E1 ,FIR/ DI/RIBUT$ 9 ,RUSSIA 9 #a#h#h#b1 FIR/ PUBLI%$ 9 #a#h#h#d47 ,FROM 3 ,FLAG4,BLACK5$4NET4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #ahha 3 ,P>T #aa -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,FEBRU>Y #a#a1 #bag 3 ,P>T #aa -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/