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,AU?OR 3 ,OCTAVE ,MIRBEAU 

,AU?OR 3 ,B5JAM9 ,R4 ,TUCK] 

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,MY MO!R IS DEAD4 ,I RECEIV$ ! NEWS ?IS MORN+1 9 A LETT] FROM HOME4 ,AL?\< ,I HAVE NEV] HAD ANY?+ BUT BL[S FROM H]1 ! NEWS HAS GIV5 ME PA91 & ,I HAVE CRI$1 & CRI$1 & CRI$4 ,SEE+ ME CRY+1 ,MADAME SAID3 

0,AGA9 !SE MANN]S80 

,I ANSW]$3 

0,MY MO!R1 MY POOR MO!R1 IS DEAD60 

,!N ,MADAME1 9 H] ORD9>Y VOICE3 

0,IT IS A PITY1 BUT ,I CAN DO NO?+ AB\T IT4 ,AT ANY RATE1 ! WORK MU/ NOT SUFF]40 

,& ?AT WAS ALL4 ,OH6 9DE$1 ,MADAME'S K9DNESS WILL NEV] KILL H]4 

,:AT HAS MADE ME MO/ UNHAPPY IS ! FACT ?AT ,I HAVE SE5 A CO9CID5CE BETWE5 MY MO!R'S DEA? & ! MURD] ( ! LITTLE F]RET4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME LIKE A PUNI%M5T FROM HEAV51 & ?AT P]HAPS MY MO!R W\LD NOT BE DEAD IF ,I HAD NOT OBLIG$ ! CAPTA9 TO KILL POOR ,KLEB]4 ,9 VA9 HAVE ,I REPEAT$ TO MYSELF ?AT MY MO!R DI$ BE=E ! F]RET4 ,?AT HAD NO EFFECT2 ! IDEA HAS PURSU$ ME ALL DAY LONG1 LIKE A REMORSE4 

,I %\LD HAVE LIK$ TO GO HOME4 ,BUT ,AUDI]NE IS SO F> AWAY1--AT ! 5D ( ! WORLD1 IT SEEMS4 ,& ,I HAVE NO MONEY4 ,:5 ,I %ALL RECEIVE MY FIR/ MON?'S WAGES1 ,I %ALL HAVE TO PAY ! EMPLOYM5T-BUREAU4 ,I %ALL NOT HAVE 5\< TO EV5 PAY ! FEW LITTLE DEBTS CONTRACT$ DUR+ ! DAYS :5 ,I WAS ON ! PAVEM5T4 

,& !N1 ( :AT USE W\LD IT BE TO GO8 ,MY BRO!R IS 9 ! NAVAL S]VICE1 & HIS VESSEL IS 9 ,*9A1 ,I BELIEVE1 = IT IS A V]Y LONG TIME S9CE WE HAD ANY NEWS FROM HIM4 ,& MY SI/] ,L\ISE8 ,:]E IS %E N[8 ,I DO NOT KN[4 ,S9CE %E LEFT US TO FOLL[ ,JEAN LE ,DUFF TO ,CONC>NEAU1 NO?+ HAS BE5 HE>D FROM H]4 ,%E MU/ HAVE ROLL$ HI!R & ?I!R1 ! DEVIL KN[S :]E6 ,P]HAPS %E IS 9 A PUBLIC H\SE2 P]HAPS %E1 TOO1 IS DEAD4 ,& P]HAPS1 ALSO1 MY BRO!R IS DEAD4 

,YES1 :Y %\LD ,I GO !RE8 ,9 :AT WAY W\LD IT HELP ME8 ,!RE IS NO ONE !RE N[ :O 9T]E/S ME1 & SURELY MY MO!R HAS LEFT NO?+4 ,H] RAGS & ! LITTLE FURNITURE ?AT %E HAD C]TA9LY WILL NOT PAY H] BR&Y BILL4 

,IT IS QUE]1 ALL ! SAME2 AS LONG AS %E WAS LIV+1 ,I ALMO/ NEV] ?\<T ( H]2 ,I FELT NO DESIRE TO SEE H] AGA94 ,I WROTE TO H] ONLY :5 ,I *ANG$ MY PLACE1 & !N SIMPLY TO GIVE H] MY ADDRESS4 ,%E HAS BEAT5 ME SO MU*6 ,I WAS SO UNHAPPY ) H]1 %E BE+ ALWAYS DRUNK4 ,& YET1 ON LE>N+ SUDD5LY ?AT %E IS DEAD1 MY S\L IS PLUNG$ 9 M\RN+1 & ,I FEEL MORE ALONE ?AN EV]4 

,& ,I REMEMB] MY *ILDHOOD ) S+UL> CLE>NESS4 ,I SEE AGA9 ALL ! ?+S & BE+S AMONG :OM ,I BEGAN ! /]N APPR5TICE%IP ( LIFE4 ,!RE IS REALLY TOO MU* SORR[ ON ONE SIDE1 TOO MU* HAPP9ESS ON ! O!R4 ,! WORLD IS NOT JU/4 

,ONE NI<T1 ,I REMEMB]1--,I WAS V]Y SMALL1 MOREOV]1--,I REMEMB] ?AT WE W]E AWAK5$ ) A />T BY ! :I/LE ( ! LIFE-SAV+ BOAT4 ,OH6 ?OSE CALLS 9 ! TEMPE/ & 9 ! D>KNESS1--H[ LUGUBRI\S !Y >E6 ,S9CE ! NI<T BE=E1 ! W9D HAD BE5 BL[+ A GALE4 ,! H>BOR B> WAS :ITE & FURI\S4 ,ONLY A FEW SLOOPS HAD BE5 ABLE TO GET BACK4 ,! O!RS1 ! POOR O!RS1 W]E SURELY 9 DANG]4 

,KN[+ ?AT MY FA!R WAS FI%+ 9 ! VIC9ITY ( ! ,ILE DE ,SE91 MY MO!R WAS NOT TOO ANXI\S4 ,%E HOP$ ?AT HE HAD PUT 9TO ! ISL& H>BOR1 AS HE HAD DONE SO (T5 BE=E4 ,NEV]!LESS1 ON HE>+ ! :I/LE ( ! LIFE-SAV+ BOAT1 %E >OSE1 TREMBL+ & V]Y PALE1 WRAPP$ ME HURRI$LY 9 A ?ICK WOOL5 %AWL1 & />T$ = ! BREAKWAT]4 ,MY SI/] ,L\ISE1 :O WAS ALREADY GR[N1 & MY Y\NG] BRO!R1 FOLL[$ H]1 CRY+3 

0,OH6 ,HOLY ,VIRG96 ,OH6 ,\R ,JESUS60 

,& %E1 TOO1 CRI$3 

0,OH6 ,HOLY ,VIRG96 ,OH6 ,\R ,JESUS60 

,! N>R[ /REETS W]E FULL ( PEOPLE1--WOM51 OLD M51 *ILDR54 ,A CR[D ( FRI<T5$ %AD[S W]E HA/5+ TO ! PI]1 :]E ! GROAN+ ( ! BOATS C\LD BE HE>D4 ,BUT !Y C\LD NOT /AY ON ! BREAKWAT] BECAUSE ( ! /RONG W9D1 & ESPECIALLY BECAUSE ( ! WAVES1 :I*1 BEAT+ AGA9/ ! /ONE EMBANKM5T1 SWEPT IT FROM 5D TO 5D1 ) ! NOISE ( A CANNONADE4 ,MY MO!R TOOK ! PA? 444 0,OH6 ,HOLY ,VIRG96 ,OH6 ,\R ,JESUS644440 TOOK ! PA? ?AT W9DS >\ND ! E/U>Y TO ! LI<T-H\SE4 ,EV]Y?+ WAS BLACK ON L&1 & ON ! SEA1 :I* WAS BLACK ALSO1 C\LD BE SE51 FROM TIME TO TIME1 9 ! DI/ANCE1 BY ! RAYS FROM ! LI<T-H\SE1 ! :ITE BREAK+ ( 5ORM\S WAVES4 ,9 SPITE ( ! %OCKS 444 0,OH6 ,HOLY ,VIRG96 ,OH6 ,\R ,JESUS644440 9 SPITE ( ! %OCKS & 9 A WAY LULL$ BY !M1 9 SPITE ( ! W9D & 9 A WAY /UNN$ BY IT1 ,I W5T TO SLEEP 9 MY MO!R'S >MS4 ,I AWOKE 9 A L[ ROOM1 & ,I SAW1 AMONG SOMB] BACKS1 GLOOMY FACES1 & WAV+ >MS1--,I SAW1 ON A CAMP B$1 LI<T$ BY TWO TALL[ C&LES1 A GREAT CORPSE 444 0,OH6 ,HOLY ,VIRG96 ,OH6 ,\R ,JESUS644440 A FRI<TFUL CORPSE1 LONG & NAK$1 P]FECTLY RIGID1 ! FACE CRU%$1 ! LIMBS /REAK$ ) BLE$+ GA%ES & COV]$ ) BLACK & BLUE SPOTS4 ,IT WAS MY FA!R4 

,I SEE HIM /ILL4 ,HIS HAIR WAS GLU$ TO HIS SKULL1 & FILL$ ) A MASS ( SEA-WE$ ?AT MADE A SORT ( CR[N4 ,M5 W]E B5D+ OV] HIM1 RUBB+ HIS SK9 ) W>M FLANNELS & =C+ AIR 9TO HIS M\?4 ,!RE WAS ! MAYOR2 !RE WAS ! RECTOR2 !RE WAS ! CAPTA9 ( CU/OMS2 !RE WAS ! M>9E POLICEMAN4 ,I WAS FRI<T5$2 ,I FRE$ MYSELF FROM MY %AWL1 &1 RUNN+ BETWE5 ! LEGS ( !SE M51 OV] ! WET /ONE FLOOR1 ,I BEGAN TO CRY1--TO CALL PAPA1--TO CALL MAMA4 ,A NEI<BOR TOOK ME AWAY4 

,FROM ?AT MOM5T MY MO!R TOOK TO DR9K+ FURI\SLY4 ,AT FIR/ %E REALLY TRI$ TO WORK 9 ! S>D9E-PACK+ E/ABLI%M5TS1 BUT1 AS %E WAS ALWAYS DRUNK1 NONE ( H] EMPLOY]S W\LD KEEP H]4 ,!N %E /AY$ AT HOME TO 9TOXICATE H]SELF1 QU>RELSOME & GLOOMY2 &1 :5 %E WAS FULL ( BR&Y1 %E BEAT US4 ,H[ DOES IT HAPP5 ?AT %E DID NOT KILL ME8 

,I AVOID$ ! H\SE AS MU* AS ,I C\LD4 ,I SP5T MY DAYS 9 PLAY+ ON ! PI]1 9 ?IEV+ 9 ! G>D5S1 & 9 PADDL+ 9 ! PUDDLES :5 ! TIDE WAS L[4 ,OR ELSE1 ON ! ,PLOG(F ROAD1 AT ! BOTTOM ( A GRASSY DECL9E1 %ELT]$ FROM ! SEA W9D & COV]$ ) ?ICK BU%ES1 ,I MISBEHAV$ ) ! LITTLE BOYS1 AMONG ! HAW?ORNS4 ,ON RETURN+ AT NI<T1 ,I G5]ALLY F\ND MY MO!R /RET*$ ON ! TILE FLOOR ACROSS ! ?RE%OLD1 9]T1 H] M\? COV]$ ) VOMIT1 & A BROK5 BOTTLE 9 H] H&S4 ,(T5 ,I HAD TO /EP OV] H] BODY4 ,H] AWAK5+S W]E T]RIBLE4 ,%E WAS SEIZ$ ) A PASSION = DE/RUCTION4 ,)\T LI/5+ TO MY PRAY]S OR MY CRIES1 %E TORE ME FROM ! B$1 PURSU$ ME1 KICK$ ME1 & KNOCK$ ME AGA9/ ! FURNITURE1 CRY+3 

0,I'LL HAVE Y\R HIDE6 ,I'LL HAVE Y\R HIDE60 

,MANY TIMES ,I ?\<T ,I %\LD DIE4 

,& !N %E DEBAU*$ H]SELF1 TO GET MONEY ) :I* TO BUY LIQUOR4 ,AT NI<T1 EV]Y NI<T1 L[ KNOCKS W]E HE>D AT ! DOOR ( \R H\SE4 ,A SAILOR 5T]$1 FILL+ ! ROOM ) A /RONG ODOR ( SEA-SALT & FI%4 ,HE LAY D[N1 REMA9$ AN H\R1 & W5T AWAY4 ,& ANO!R CAME1 AFT] HIM1 LAY D[N ALSO1 REMA9$ ANO!R H\R1 & W5T AWAY4 ,!RE W]E /RUGGLES & T]RIFY+ UPRO>S 9 ! D>KNESS ( !SE ABOM9ABLE NI<TS1 & SEV]AL TIMES ! POLICE 9T]F]$4 

,?US YE>S ROLL$ BY4 ,I WAS NOT WANT$ ANY:]E2 NOR WAS MY SI/]1 OR MY BRO!R4 ,!Y AVOID$ US 9 ! /REETS4 ,! RESPECTABLE PEOPLE DROVE US ) /ONES FROM !IR H\SES1 TO :I* WE W5T1 SOMETIMES TO /EAL1 SOMETIMES TO BEG4 ,ONE DAY MY SI/] ,L\ISE1 :O ALSO HAD GOT 9TO BAD WAYS ) ! SAILORS1 RAN AWAY4 ,& !N MY BRO!R 5LI/$ AS A CAB9-BOY4 ,I WAS LEFT ALONE ) MY MO!R4 

,AT ! AGE ( T5 ,I WAS NO LONG] *A/E4 ,MADE FAMILI> ) LOVE BY ! SAD EXAMPLE ( MAMA1 P]V]T$ BY ! LITTLE BOYS ) :OM ,I ASSOCIAT$1 MY PHYSICAL DEVELOPM5T HAD BE5 V]Y RAPID4 ,9 SPITE ( DEPRIVATIONS & BL[S1 LIV+ CONT9UALLY 9 ! OP5 SEA AIR1 FREE & /RONG1 ,I HAD GR[N SO FA/ ?AT AT ! AGE ( ELEV5 ,I EXP]I5C$ ! FIR/ AWAK5+S ( WOMANHOOD4 ,B5EA? MY GIRLI% EXT]IOR1 ,I WAS ALMO/ A WOMAN4 

,AT ! AGE ( TWELVE ,I WAS A WOMAN QUITE1 & NO LONG] A VIRG94 ,RAP$8 ,NO1 NOT EXACTLY4 ,CONS5T+8 ,YES1 ALMO/1--AT LEA/ 9 ! DEGREE 9 :I* ! >TLESSNESS ( MY VICE & ! C&OR ( MY DEPRAVITY W]E CONSI/5T ) CONS5T4 ,! ?+ OCCURR$ ONE ,SUNDAY1 AFT] HI< MASS1 NE> ! BEA*1 ON ! ,SA9T ,JEAN SIDE1 9 A RECESS 9 ! CLIFF1 9 A D>K HOLE AMONG ! ROCKS :]E ! SEA-GULLS CAME TO BUILD !IR NE/S1 & :]E ! SAILORS SOMETIMES HID ! WRECKAGE :I* !Y F\ND AT SEA4 ,! MAN WAS ! =EMAN ( A S>D9E-PACK+ E/ABLI%M5T1--AN OLD1 HAIRY1 ILL-SMELL+ MAN1 :OSE FACE WAS NO?+ BUT A DIRTY MASS ( BE>D & HAIR4 ,HE GAVE ME AN ORANGE4 ,HE HAD A FUNNY NAME1--,M4 ,CLEOPHAS ,BISC\ILLE4 

,& H]E IS AN 9COMPREH5SIBLE ?+1 ( :I* ,I HAVE F\ND NO EXPLANATION 9 ANY NOVEL4 ,UGLY1 BRUTAL1 & REPULSIVE ?\< ,M4 ,BISC\ILLE WAS1 :5 ,I ?9K ( HIM N[1--& ,I (T5 DO1--H[ HAPP5S IT ?AT IT IS NEV] ) A FEEL+ ( DETE/ATION = HIM1 NEV] ) A DISPOSITION TO CURSE HIM8 ,AT ?IS RECOLLECTION1 :I* ,I CALL UP ) SATISFACTION1 ,I FEEL A SORT ( GREAT GRATITUDE1 A SORT ( GREAT T5D]NESS1 & ALSO A SORT ( REAL REGRET AT HAV+ TO SAY TO MYSELF ?AT NEV] %ALL ,I SEE ?IS DISGU/+ P]SONAGE AGA94 

,9 ?IS CONNECTION MAY ,I BE P]MITT$ TO (F] H]E1 HUMBLE ?\< ,I AM1 MY P]SONAL CONTRIBUTION TO ! BIOGRAPHY ( GREAT M54 

,M4 ,PAUL ,B\RGET WAS ! 9TIMATE FRI5D & SPIRITUAL GUIDE ( ! ,C\NTESS ,F>D91 9 :OSE H\SE LA/ YE> ,I S]V$ AS *AMB]MAID4 ,I HAD ALWAYS HE>D IT SAID ?AT HE ALONE KNEW1 EV5 TO ITS SUBSOIL1 ! COMPLEX S\L ( WOMAN4 ,& MANY TIMES ,I HAD HAD ! IDEA ( WRIT+ TO HIM1 9 ORD] TO SUBMIT TO HIM ?IS CASE ( PASSIONAL PSY*OLOGY4 ,I HAD NOT D>$4 ,DO NOT BE TOO MU* A/ONI%$ AT ! GRAVITY ( SU* PREOCCUPATIONS4 ,!Y >E NOT USUAL AMONG DOME/ICS1 ,I ADMIT4 ,BUT 9 ! SALONS ( ! C\NTESS !Y NEV] TALK$ ( ANY?+ BUT PSY*OLOGY4 ,IT IS AN ADMITT$ FACT ?AT \R M9D IS MODEL$ ON ?AT ( \R MA/]S1 & ?AT :AT IS SAID 9 ! SALON IS SAID ALSO 9 ! S]VANTS' HALL4 ,UNHAPPILY WE HAD NOT 9 ! S]VANTS' HALL A ,PAUL ,B\RGET1 CAPABLE ( ELUCIDAT+ & SOLV+ ! CASES ( FEM9ISM ?AT WE DISCUSS$ !RE4 ,! EXPLANATIONS ( ,MONSIEUR ,JEAN HIMSELF W]E NOT SATISFACTORY TO ME4 

,ONE DAY MY MI/RESS S5T ME TO C>RY AN 0URG5T0 LETT] TO ! ILLU/RI\S MA/]4 ,HE H&$ ME ! REPLY HIMSELF4 ,!N ,I MADE BOLD TO PUT TO HIM ! QUE/ION ?AT TORM5T$ ME1 PRET5D+1 H[EV]1 ?AT ! H]O9E ( ?IS TICKLI% & OBSCURE /ORY WAS A FRI5D ( M9E4 ,M4 ,PAUL ,B\RGET ASK$3 

0,:AT IS Y\R FRI5D8 ,A WOMAN ( ! PEOPLE8 ,A POOR WOMAN1 UND\BT$LY80 

0,A *AMB]MAID1 LIKE MYSELF1 ILLU/RI\S MA/]40 

,A SUP]IOR GRIMACE1 A LOOK ( DISDA91 APPE>$ ON ,M4 ,B\RGET'S FACE4 ,AH6 SAPRI/I6 HE DOES NOT LIKE ! POOR4 

0,I DO NOT OCCUPY MYSELF ) !SE S\LS10 SAID HE4 0,!SE >E TOO LITTLE S\LS4 ,!Y >E NOT EV5 S\LS4 ,!Y >E \TSIDE ! PROV9CE ( MY PSY*OLOGY40 

,I UND]/OOD ?AT1 9 ?IS PROV9CE1 ONE BEG9S TO BE A S\L ONLY ) AN 9COME ( A HUNDR$ ?\S& FRANCS4 

,NOT SO ,M4 ,JULES ,LEMAITRE1 ALSO A FAMILI> ( ! H\SE4 ,:5 ,I ASK$ HIM ! SAME QUE/ION1 HE ANSW]$1 PRETTILY CAT*+ ME AB\T ! WAI/3 

0,WELL1 *>M+ ,CELE/9E1 Y\R FRI5D IS A GOOD GIRL1 ?AT IS ALL4 ,&1 IF %E RESEMBLES Y\1 ,I W\LD SAY A C\PLE ( WORDS TO H]1 Y\ KN[1--HEY6 HEY6 HEY60 

,HE1 AT LEA/1 ) HIS FACE ( A LITTLE HUMPBACK$ & M]RY-MAK+ FAUN1 PUT ON NO AIRS2 & HE WAS GOOD-NATUR$4 ,:AT A PITY ?AT HE HAS FALL5 AMONG ! PRIE/S6 

,) ALL ?AT1 ,I KN[ NOT :AT W\LD HAVE BECOME ( ME 9 ?AT HELL ( AN ,AUDI]NE1 IF ! ,LITTLE ,SI/]S ( ,PONT-,CROIX1 F9D+ ME 9TELLIG5T & PRETTY1 HAD NOT TAK5 ME 91 \T ( PITY4 ,!Y DID NOT TAKE ADVANTAGE ( MY AGE1 ( MY IGNORANCE1 ( MY TRY+ & DESPIS$ SITUATION1 TO MAKE USE ( ME1 TO SECRETE ME = !IR B5EFIT1 AS (T5 HAPP5S 9 SU* E/ABLI%M5TS1 :I* C>RY HUMAN EXPLOITATION TO ! PO9T ( CRIME4 ,!Y W]E POOR1 C&ID1 TIMID1 *>ITABLE LITTLE BE+S1 :O W]E NOT RI*1 & :O DID NOT EV5 D>E TO EXT5D !IR H&S TO PASS]SBY OR TO BEG AT ! DOORS ( H\SES4 ,!RE WAS SOMETIMES MU* POV]TY AMONG !M1 BUT !Y GOT ALONG AS BE/ !Y C\LD4 ,&1 AMID ALL ! DIFFICULTIES ( LIV+1 !Y CONT9U$ NONE ! LESS TO BE GAY1 & TO S+ CONT9UALLY LIKE L>KS4 ,!IR IGNORANCE ( LIFE HAD SOME?+ T\*+ AB\T IT1 SOME?+ :I* BR+S ! TE>S TO MY EYES TO-DAY1 N[ ?AT ,I CAN BETT] UND]/& !IR 9F9ITE & PURE K9DNESS4 

,!Y TAU<T ME TO READ1 TO WRITE1 TO SEW1 TO DO H\SEWORK2 &1 :5 ,I HAD BECOME ALMO/ EXP]T 9 !SE NECESS>Y ?+S1 !Y GOT ME A PLACE AS A LITTLE H\SEMAID 9 ! H\SE ( A RETIR$ COLONEL1 :O CAME EV]Y SUMM]1 ) HIS WIFE & HIS TWO DAU<T]S1 TO OCCUPY A SORT ( DILAPIDAT$ LITTLE *ATEAU NE> ,COM=T4 ,WOR?Y PEOPLE1 C]TA9LY1 BUT SO SAD1 SO SAD6 ,& MANIACS1 TOO6 ,NEV] A SMILE ON !IR FACES1 NEV] A SIGN ( JOY 9 !IR G>M5TS1 :I* W]E ALWAYS BLACK4 ,! COLONEL HAD HAD A LA! PUT 9 AT ! TOP ( ! H\SE1 & !RE1 ALL DAY LONG1 HE TURN$ EGG CUPS \T ( BOX-WOOD1 OR ELSE ?OSE OVAL BALLS1 CALL$ 0EGGS10 :I* H\SEWIVES USE 9 M5D+ /OCK+S4 ,MADAME DREW UP PETITION AFT] PETITION1 9 ORD] TO OBTA9 A TOBACCO-%OP4 ,& ! TWO DAU<T]S1 SAY+ NO?+1 DO+ NO?+1 ONE ) A DUCK'S BEAK1 ! O!R ) A RABBIT'S FACE1 YELL[ & ?91 ANGUL> & FAD$1 DRI$ UP ON ! SPOT1 LIKE TWO PLANTS LACK+ EV]Y?+1--SOIL1 WAT]1 SUN%9E4 ,!Y BOR$ ME 5ORM\SLY4 ,AT ! 5D ( EI<T MON?S ,I LEFT !M1 9 A MOM5T ( RA%NESS :I* ,I HAVE REGRETT$4 

,BUT !N6 ,I HE>D ,P>IS BREA?+ & LIV+ >\ND ME4 ,ITS BREA? FILL$ MY HE>T ) NEW DESIRES4 ,AL?\< ,I DID NOT GO \T (T51 ,I HAD ADMIR$ ) A PRODIGI\S A/ONI%M5T ! /REETS1 ! %OP-W9D[S1 ! CR[DS1 ! PALACES1 ! BRILLIANT EQUIPAGES1 ! JEWEL$ WOM54 ,&1 :51 AT NI<T1 ,I W5T TO B$ 9 ! SIX? /ORY1 ,I 5VI$ ! O!R DOME/ICS ( ! H\SE1 & !IR PRANKS :I* ,I F\ND *>M+1 & !IR /ORIES :I* LEFT ME 9 A /ATE ( M>VEL\S SURPRISE4 ,?\< ,I REMA9$ 9 ! H\SE BUT A %ORT TIME1 ,I SAW !RE1 AT NI<T1 9 ! SIX? /ORY1 ALL SORTS ( DEBAU*]IES1 & TOOK MY P>T 9 !M ) ! 5?USIASM & EMULATION ( A NOVICE4 ,OH6 ! VAGUE HOPES & ! UNC]TA9 AMBITIONS ?AT ,I *]I%$ !RE1 9 ?AT FALLACI\S IDEAL ( PLEASURE & VICE6 

,ALAS6 YES1 ONE IS Y\NG1 ONE KN[S NO?+ ( LIFE1 ONE 5T]TA9S IMAG9ATIONS & DREAMS4 ,OH6 ! DREAMS6 ,/UPIDITIES6 ,I HAVE SUPP$ ON !M1 9 ! WORDS ( ,M4 ,XAVI]1 A PRETTILY P]V]T$ BOY1 ( :OM ,I %ALL HAVE SOME?+ TO SAY LAT]4 

,& ,I HAVE ROLL$4 ,OH6 H[ ,I HAVE ROLL$6 ,IT IS FRI<TFUL :5 ,I ?9K ( IT4 

,YET ,I AM NOT OLD1 BUT ,I HAVE HAD A V]Y CLOSE VIEW ( ?+S2 ,I HAVE SE5 PEOPLE NAK$4 ,& ,I HAVE SNIFF$ ! ODOR ( !IR L951 ( !IR SK91 ( !IR S\L4 ,9 SPITE ( P]FUMES1 !Y DO NOT SMELL GOOD4 ,ALL ?AT A RESPECT$ 9T]IOR1 ALL ?AT A RESPECTABLE FAMILY1 CAN HIDE 9 ! WAY ( FIL?1 %AMEFUL VICES1 & BASE CRIMES1 B5EA? ! APPE>ANCE ( VIRTUE1--AH6 ,I KN[ IT WELL4 ,IT MAKES NO DIFF]5CE IF !Y >E RI*1 IF !Y HAVE RAGS ( SILK & VELVET & GILD$ FURNITURE2 IT MAKES NO DIFF]5CE IF !Y WA% 9 SILV] TUBS & MAKE A GREAT %[1--,I KN[ !M4 ,!Y >E NOT CLEAN4 ,& !IR HE>T IS MORE DISGU/+ ?AN WAS MY MO!R'S B$4 

,OH6 H[ A POOR DOME/IC IS TO BE PITI$1 & H[ LONELY %E IS6 ,%E MAY LIVE 9 H\SES FULL ( JOY\S & NOISY PEOPLE1 BUT H[ LONELY %E IS ALWAYS6 ,SOLITUDE DOES NOT CONSI/ 9 LIV+ ALONE2 IT CONSI/S 9 LIV+ ) O!RS1 ) PEOPLE :O TAKE NO 9T]E/ 9 Y\1 ) :OM Y\ C\NT = LESS ?AN A DOG GORG$ ) GOODIES1 OR ?AN A FL[] C>$ = AS T5D]LY AS A RI* MAN'S *ILD1--PEOPLE ( :OM Y\ HAVE NO?+ BUT !IR CA/(F G>M5TS OR ! SPOIL$ REMA9S ( !IR TABLE4 

0,Y\ MAY EAT ?IS PE>2 IT IS ROTT54 ,F9I% ?IS *ICK5 9 ! KIT*52 IT SMELLS BAD40 

,EV]Y WORD IS CONTEMPTU\S ( Y\1 EV]Y GE/URE DISP>AG+ ( Y\1 PLAC+ Y\ ON A LEVEL L[] ?AN ?AT ( ! BEA/S4 ,& Y\ MU/ SAY NO?+2 Y\ MU/ SMILE & GIVE ?ANKS2 UNLESS Y\ W\LD PASS = AN +RATE OR A WICK$ HE>T4 ,SOMETIMES1 :5 DO+ MY MI/RESSES' HAIR1 ,I HAVE HAD A MAD DESIRE TO TE> !IR NECK1 TO SCRAT* !IR BOSOM ) MY NAILS4 

,=TUNATELY ONE IS NOT ALWAYS UND] ! 9FLU5CE ( !SE GLOOMY IDEAS4 ,ONE %AKES !M (F1 & >RANGES MATT]S TO GET ALL ! FUN ONE CAN1 BY HIMSELF4 

,?IS EV5+1 AFT] D9N]1 ,M>IANNE1 SEE+ ?AT ,I WAS UTT]LY SAD1 WAS MOV$ TO PITY1 & TRI$ TO CONSOLE ME4 ,%E W5T TO GET A BOTTLE ( BR&Y FROM ! DEP?S ( ! SIDEBO>D1 :]E IT /OOD AMONG A HEAP ( OLD PAP]S & DIRTY RAGS4 

0,Y\ MU/ NOT GRIEVE LIKE ?AT10 %E SAID TO ME2 0Y\ MU/ %AKE Y\RSELF A LITTLE1 MY POOR LITTLE ONE2 Y\ MU/ CONSOLE Y\RSELF40 

,&1 HAV+ P\R$ ME \T A DR9K1 %E SAT = AN H\R1 ) ELB[S ON ! TABLE1 &1 9 A DRAWL+ & LAM5T+ VOICE1 TOLD ME GLOOMY /ORIES ( SICKNESS1 ( *ILD-BIR?1 ( ! DEA? ( H] MO!R1 ( H] FA!R1 & ( H] SI/]4 ,) EV]Y M9UTE H] VOICE BECAME ?ICK]2 H] EYES MOI/5$2 & %E REPEAT$1 AS %E LICK$ H] GLASS3 

0,Y\ MU/ NOT GRIEVE LIKE ?AT4 ,! DEA? ( Y\R MAMA1--OH6 IT IS A GREAT MIS=TUNE6 ,BUT :AT DO Y\ EXPECT8 ,WE >E ALL MORTAL4 ,OH6 MY ,GOD6 ,OH6 MY POOR LITTLE ONE60 

,!N %E SUDD5LY BEGAN TO WEEP & WEEP1 &1 :ILE %E WEPT & WEPT1 %E DID NOT CEASE TO WAIL3 

0,Y\ MU/ NOT GRIEVE2 Y\ MU/ NOT GRIEVE40 

,AT FIR/ IT WAS A PLA9T2 BUT SOON IT BECAME A SORT ( FRI<TFUL BRAY1 :I* GREW L\D] & L\D]4 ,& H] BIG BELLY1 & H] BIG BREA/S1 & H] TRIPLE *91 %AK5 BY H] SOBS1 HEAV$ 9 5ORM\S SURGES4 

0,BE /ILL1 !N1 ,M>IANNE10 ,I SAID TO H]2 0,MADAME MI<T HE> Y\1 & COME40 

,BUT %E DID NOT LI/5 TO ME1 &1 CRY+ L\D] ?AN EV]1 EXCLAIM$3 

0,AH6 :AT A MIS=TUNE6 :AT A GREAT MIS=TUNE60 

,SO ?AT ,I TOO1 MY /OMA* TURN$ BY DR9K1 & MY HE>T MOV$ BY ,M>IANNE'S TE>S1 BEGAN TO SOB LIKE A ,MADELE9E4 ,ALL ! SAME1 %E IS NOT A BAD GIRL4 

,BUT ,I AM GETT+ TIR$ H]E2 ,I AM GETT+ TIR$2 ,I AM GETT+ TIR$4 ,I %\LD LIKE TO GET A PLACE 9 ! H\SE ( SOME MEMB] ( ! DEMI-MONDE1 OR ELSE 9 ,AM]ICA4 

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